Pray Yet Again

We are participants in the Amazon Services LLC Associates Program, an affiliate advertising program designed to provide a means for us to earn fees by linking to Amazon.com and affiliated sites, as well as other affiliate links. See our disclosure page for more info.

this was posted on HK message board. it’s from a mom who makes and sells soaps at home. she is NOT a Christian, and i would love it if you could pray for her son and for her, that she may become saved.

Read this slowly, read it well, and take every single word of it to
heart.

Have you ever heard a splashing crash and knew instinctively what it
was right away? Have you ever heard your 2 yr old son screeching at
the top of his lungs for his mommy? Have you ever felt the
helplessness of seeing your son cry bloody tears and see blood
seeping from the corners of his mouth, meanwhile his skin is cherry
red and you can feel the heat coming off of him…….

Sounds like a horror flick, yes?

I *know* what it’s like to experience these things first hand, and I
can honestly say that I sincerely hope with every fiber of my being
that NONE of you *ever* have to experience what I went through last
night.

My son dumped more than 2/3 of a gallon of a 40% lye solution on his
head. He was saturated from HEAD TO TOE.

You know, in almost 5 years of soaping, maybe even longer now, I’ve
*never* had an accident. No, I didn’t get too cocky about my lye,
what I got was relaxed, and very very careless.

I had JUST set the pitcher (tightly sealed closed container of room
temp lye solution) down on the counter. It was less than 2 minutes.
I turned around to clear off the island in the kitchen, was in the
middle of fixing supper you see……..then I was going to clear off the
island because there was a lot of soap I was planning on making last
night. So, why not set it here just for a minute so I can clear this
out.

A minute is all it took.

Now this series of events happened in less than 7 minutes.

He grabbed the pitcher, it was very heavy for his little 2 year old
hands, so he dropped it…..on his head. Even though the container was
sealed, the weight of the pitcher on impact caused the tightly sealed
lid to pop off. Konnor immediately started screaming, I was there
the instant it poured out all over his body. FROM HEAD TO TOE. I
grabbed him right as he fell belly down in the puddle of caustic
liquid. I’m sure we all know how SLICK and slippery lye solution
is. I almost DROPPED him back into the liquid.

I *threw* him into the sink (about 4 feet away) starting running
water on him immediately. Sprayer in one hand, phone in the other,
screaming at 911. My son was screaming…..a sound I will never EVER
forget. Eyes mommy eyes!!! His whole body was shaking in absolute
anguish. Have you ever had lye solution splash up on you? Burns
doesn’t it? It was on his WHOLE body. 911 was dispatched, Thorne
was grabbing the vinegar, Kris was looking up the number for the
Poison Control Center. I poured a whole gallon of vinegar over my
sons head, kept on spraying his body with cool water. Called the
poison control center to see if mayhap there was something,
*anything* else I could do to try to save my son. Ironically, they
didn’t even MENTION the word VINEGAR. Irrigate irrigate irrigate.
Yea yea………I got that covered.

His tears were blood tinged. He had blood dripping from his mouth.
His skin was fire engine red.

EMS got here………. Thankfully it was a guy I grew up with because I
was a babbling fool trying to get my head together. He asked me,
Steph, did you take off his diaper? Oh my, NO……..I didn’t even
*think* to take off his diaper.

What I saw then…. Right above his p****, about an inch or so, is a
long BLACK and BROWN very DEEP BURN. Off to the left, where the tape
from the diaper was, more deep burns. I was mortified, speechless,
and sobbing uncontrollably. All I could do was hold my burning baby
and rock and cry.

You have NO idea how helpless, how hopeless, and how low I felt at
that moment. I’ve never felt so wretched in my life.

This WHOLE thing could have been prevented if I wouldn’t have put
that container there. For only a minute you know. I was going to go
back and pick it right back up after I wiped down the island. Really
I was. Famous last words of a fool……..

We get to ER……..we had been in contact with them the whole way there
so they were prepared and knew we were coming. The took Konnor in
right away and we were stopped to answer questions. I walked into
the exam room to see 8 people crowded around my screaming toddler.

The thoughts going through my mind……..he’s going to be blind. It’s
all my fault. I was stupid and irresponsible. He’s going to be
physically scarred and possibly disfigured. My beautiful precious
perfect little boy just had his life ruined by his own MOTHER. He’ll
never be able to see Sponge Bob again that he loves so much. He wont
be able to see his puppy or see the goofy faces his brother loves
making at him. He’ll never ever see again. I did it, and it could
have been prevented.

Those were my thoughts. I begged and pleaded with the doctors, with
the gods, with all the powers that be to please save my child.

Ok. He’s NOT blind. He *can* see, but we’re very very concerned
about the right eye where he got the most damage. He MAY have some
vision loss, but until the cornea is completely healed over, we wont
know the complete extent of the damage. He’s on an eye ointment
every 4 hours, and an eye drop (Mucomist) every *2* hours. And
please remember this………the cornea does have a great capacity for
healing, if it weren’t damaged by an alkaline solution. The Mucomist
will be the thing to heal his eye if there’s any hope. He explained
it to me that the medication will prevent the collagen in the cornea
from sloughing off and deteriorating. The first ph they took was 9.
……..they ran a liter of normal saline into each eye. The ph was then
over 8, but lower than 9, so they ran another liter into each eye.
Finally the ph was a hair above 7 and was considered within normal
range. They did the flourescent strips in his eyes to look at the
damage. The right eye is definitely more damaged than the right, but
there’s still a possibility that he can completely heal with NO
permanent damage.

Do you know they had to give that kid 2 FULL milligrams of Ativan and
50mg of Demerol to snow him? And he was STILL fighting like a bull.
To give you a good idea on dosage, when I was nursing, 1mg of Ativan
would zonk a 200 pound geriatric patient for the night and I’d have a
nice shift. My boy’s a fighter he is……..

Other damage……. He didn’t aspirate any, his lungs are perfectly
clear. None got in his nose or ears. The skin on his lips was
burned off, but none got into his mouth. His inner cheeks and tongue
are perfectly clear.

Over all, all over his body, he has a fine rash. He has small
blisters and excoriation in his armpits. His diaper area looks A LOT
better today………..it’s not black anymore, but a beigey sort of color.
They had to rough debrid his abdomen last night. He’ll likely have
very minimal scarring there.

Plain and simple, I was stupid. I was very irresponsible. Only for
a minute is TOO long to leave lye solution unattended, even though
you’re less than 4 feet away from it and it’s in a sealed container.

How am I handling this? I’m not. I’m very very bitter. I’m
extremely angry. I cry constantly and I cant stop holding him and
kissing his little tender cheeks and I cant stop apologizing to him.
But will that ever be enough if he has permanent sight loss? I don’t
need letters telling me that it wasn’t my fault and that it was an
accident. I *know* this already. But yes, it WAS my fault. S***
happens folks. But this could have been prevented. Nor do I need
your letters telling me how stupid I was, I can handle that one on my
own.

I still have so much to say but it’ll come out all jumbled so I hope
you can keep up. Konnor is surprisingly in a very good mood.
Ornerier than ever. Very happy and perky except for those every 2
hours when I have to stick something in his very hurt little eyes.
He’s such a trooper……. And just think, I could have ruined his
little perfect being for LIFE. And I still might have.

We’re not completely out of the woods yet on his eyes. The Mucomist
may not be as effective as it’s supposed to be, but his eyes are
looking a lot better today and there’s a good chance that the damage
will be minimal. The fact remains though, that there will likely be
atleast some damage that’s permanent, but I will continue to hold
onto that small shred of hope that he’ll be 100% damage free.

They had to decontaminate me after they helped me peel my shoes off
my feet. Open sandals. Stuck to my feet…….. Only minor blisters
and burns.

His diaper area does have 2nd degree burns, possibly 3rd because he
doesn’t seem to have any discomfort right in the center of it. Maybe
some nerve damage there, we don’t know that yet either.

I was repeatedly told by the ER staff, that if I wouldn’t have done
what I did and acted as fast as I did, that he would have A LOT more
damamge done. That area in his diaper could have been his FACE. He
COULD HAVE been blinded. The doctor thanked me for doing my research
and he was honestly quite surprised that I could spit out the info
from the MSDS and other sources so clearly.

My Konnor is for the most part just fine, considering how bad it
could have been. He may have some permanent scarring and vision
loss, but we’ll deal with it when we know more. He’s seeing a
specialist on Friday morning who saw him this morning. He’s already
contacted a specialist at Tulane who has agreed to COME HERE to see
him if necessary at a moments notice.

I’m not looking for sympathy. What I want for YOU, is to EDUCATE
yourself on all precautions where lye safety is concerned. And maybe
more so, NEVER EVER leave your solution unattended for a MINUTE.
Because that’s all it takes to ruin the life of a child.

The sounds my son made…….the pain he was in………his cries and screams
will keep me awake for months. The thoughts of what I have done to
my son, just knowing that I was that irresponsible with someone I
love so much………the thoughts of what COULD have happened if I didn`t
know what to do is what’s making me write this, BEGGING you to never
EVER get lazy, or relaxed, or careless.

Here are a few pictures……it’s not a pretty picture. It’s not
gruesome either, but it’s not pretty. This is my son’s BODY……due to
my carelessness. I hope you take a long hard look at it folks. I
tried to get some good shots of his eyes too, but he was too
interested in watching the new Sponge Bob DVD’s we just bought him.
Seasons 1, 2 and 3.…… Because he CAN still see the Sponge Bob that
he loves so much.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/35767971@N00/

Stephanie Bruns of Nature’s Cauldron….professional soap maker…….

later this was posted:

I will say, that you guys are some of the most wonderful ppl I have ever the pleasure to meet. You guys have helped to hold on to my sanity, and I dont know what kind of mojo you’re sending my baby boy, but please DO keep it coming.

At 7:37 this morning Dr LaFleur’s office called and he wanted to see him this morning……..he decided he didnt want to wait until tomorrow morning.

Good news. The corneal epithillium is COMPLETELY healed over. He said we dont have to do the Mucomist every 2 hours anymore but he still needs the erythromycin ointment and he gave another twice a day eye drop today to keep his eyes dilated. He said it’ll cut back on the pain and help the capillaries……. And he also told us to increase his Vitamin C to aid in healing…….

Want to know exactly what he said when he put the dye drops in and look under the flourescent light? “This is unheard of. Some one said a prayer for that baby last night. This kind of injury does not heal this fast, or this well”

I have so many emails from so many of you. Thanks so much. I cant thank you enough. Every positive thought you’ve sent this baby has helped him. He’s not completely in the clear yet, the epilthelium is healed but there may still be some scarring underneath and we wont know about vision loss or any other damage until it’s completely healed and the all the redness and inflamation goes away. Please do continue to pray, light candles, send energy, or reiki, or whatever it is you believe in, for my Konnor. I have all of you to thank for aiding his recovery. And I really really mean that.

And I want you all to know…..so many of you think I’m brave, or courageous, or a hero. I’m NOT as brave as you think……..I’m completely terrified and so broken over this. It *did* take alot out of me to tell my story, and yes, it sounded harsh, and that’s exactly what i wanted it to sound like. It was a very harsh reality when it happened. You have to KNOW what it feels like, and you have to UNDERSTAND the importance of safety precautions ALL the time. It wasn’t easy to let every one know how negligent I was, but if it saves another child from this, or worse, from something alot more severe, then my point has been well met. And please please please, be prepared for an accident. No matter how careful you are, an accident can still happen. Have that gallon of white table vinegar. Something that cost me less than 2 dollars saved my son from permenant disfigurement and total blindness.

I’m keeping all of your emails because I *do* need to be reminded that I did what I could and that I’m a good mom. I have been very very hard on myself, and I’m trying to ease up, but it’s so hard. I didn’t sleep for the last 2 nights. Every time I doze off I hear him again. When I close my eyes, I feel the burning and I can see his blood tinged tears. Yes, that’s my reality right now. Reading your emails *has* helped me. I’m saving them all and I’ve already reread them at least a few times each.

Konnor’s sleeping very peacefully……….poor kid had been woken up every 2 hours for the last 2 days for eye drops. Thorne and Kris are hanging in there too. I will say, my 13 year old was the only one who really kept his calm on Tuesday night. He’s such an amazing kid. He was scared though……..in the ER he asked me if Konnor was going to be mentally handicapped. Through tears, I had to explain to him that no, his mental capacity will not be altered and that he was going to be perfectly fine in that respect. I think Thorne just didn’t know what to expect, but at that time, none of us did. I asked Kris if he was p***ed at me. He said no he wasn’t…… He has been very supportive. Of course he’s upset and he really has every right to blow up at me and accuse me. If it would have been his stupidity that hurt Konnor like this, of course I’d be mad at him and of course I’d blame him. He’s cried alot too…….but he’s being pretty calm about it. And since we talked to the Dr again this morning, we’re all feeling alot better about the whole situation. We’ll see him again in the morning. 8:45 is his appointment time. Until he’s virtually all the way healed, he’ll see him several times a week because at the first sign of complication or a backstep in the healing process, he’s calling in his guy from Tulane.

Alot of you have told me that reading my story will be with you forever. Good. Just please never forget what could potentially happen. For those of you that want to post it in other places, please please please do. For the most part, lye accidents are unheard of. Small accidents happen occasionally. Someone burns an arm or a little splashes up in someone’s face. We all just breathe a sigh of relief that it wasn’t severe and hope it doesn’t happen again. It cant be that way. And please guys, educate those around you, those in your household…….anyone who may ever be around you while soaping. HERE is the vinegar and this is what you do with it. Have your emergency phone numbers posted right next to the phone so your husband isn’t running across the house trying to get to a computer to look up the Poison Control Center. I am so so so glad of all the emails I’ve received with promises to change your own habits. Thank you for admitting that you sometimes too, leave it sitting there for “just a mintue”.

Thanks again, all of you…….for helping my boy, and for paying attention. Your family will thank you too, for keeping them safe.

Steph

This Post Has 4 Comments

  1. Julie

    What a horrible story!!! That poor baby!

    I don’t have any lye in the house, thank goodness. I wonder, does viniger help with other burns too? I’d never heard of that before.

    I pray she does find the Lord, so she can thank Him personally, for the miracle He preformed on that little boy.

  2. Sue

    That story just gave me chills. I could not make myself look at the pictures! That Mommy should be on her knees giving thanks for her babies health!
    Sue

  3. nikki

    Wow..I’m speechless. I will keep her and Konnor in my prayers. Poor little baby..my heart aches for him.

    ~Nikki

  4. jenjen

    Oh my goodness. That story had me bawling. Chris asked me what I was crying about and I told him, which made me cry even more. That poor poor baby. I am so glad he is, for the most part, ok. =(

Leave a Reply