it’s been a LONG time since i’ve posted! i feel very badly about that, since i really like to be able to look back on what was going on. i can’t seem to remember things the next week, let alone a few years later!
i have been doing much better. i mean, i’m not better, but i’m not vomiting all the time. officially i have lost 20 lbs since right before conception. i’m slowly gaining a little now. i’m actually eating and drinking and keeping things down. i’m hopefully done with the iv treatments, and am just sticking with the zofran pump, b6 and phenergan. i feel nauseaus pretty much 24/7, but thankfully i’m able to hold back vomiting most of the time. it’s like 1x in the morning, if at all, anymore. that is a VAST improvement!!!! i am able to laugh and hold the boys again, and jamin is acting like he loves me again. in fact, he says “i wuv woo” all the time to me now. 😀 and “up” when he wants me to hold him. his vocabluary is really bursting. he has the cutest little voice!
jeremiah and josiah have gone through quite a few problems lately, i think stemming from me being so ill, from being bounced to one caregiver to the next. jeremiah is having major attitude issues and josiah is just so crazy acting sometimes. i’m praying these things will get better soon. the two of them are growing up so much! they are always wanting to see “big boy” movies now…they’ve seen star wars and a few indiana jones movies. jeremiah loves to hum the indana jones them ALL THE TIME. it gets rather annoying after a while. lol. today he told me he wishes indiana jones was real, because he is such a great hero. awww! he’s so cute!! oh, another funny thing – josiah calls han solo “star wars indiana jones” lol. i think that is too cute!
i’m 14 weeks 6 days today. it seems like i should be MUCH farther along than this, doesn’t it?! jerry and i decided on a boy’s name the other night; JAKOB NEHEMIAH, so i finally feel “ok” with the probability that this baby is a boy. i just can’t handle it when i don’t have a name for a baby. it’s very odd, i know, but even though i sincerely want a girl this time, since i have a name for a boy, i’m fine with it. i’m nuts, i know.
the other night i had a dream that i’m carrying twin girls. i know, nuts, i told you! it was rather funny. i guess in the previous ultrasounds the dr had done, one of the babies had been hiding behind the other. pretty sneaky. and so entirely impossible, since twins don’t even run in our families at all. just a dream!!!
i wanted to make sure to post that jerry has been doing so wonderfully lately. he has apologized for being insensitive and mean, and is just working extra hard at being sweet and supportive. i still know how hard it is for him, but knowing he is with me is so nice!!!! i just had to put that in, because i wouldn’t want anyone to think that he’s continuing to be a jerk. 😉
i have been pretty discouraged about digital scrapbook designing. i just don’t know if i’m cut out for it. i still love making things, but it’s nearly impossible to get people to buy anything. i guess only the big name people deserve a chance at sales. and it’s also impossible to get anyone to want to sell at my store! i have the faithful gals who are sticking with me, but two ladies had to leave. i just get really discouraged with it, not knowing if it’s the right thing to be doing or what. please be praying with me about this.
well, i’m off to take a nap. mom is here taking the boys on a walk, and the rush of fatigue just hit me hard.
please continue to pray for our little family!!