Dreams, Cravings and Going Insane

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did i mention i dreamed i am having triplets? yeah, on sunday. i dreamed jerry, jeremiah and i were at the ultrasound and they saw three babies, three heartbeats, three beans!!! i was speechless and jerry almost passed out. it was strange, thinking that our family would be complete in just two pregnancies. (four is the number we are comfortable with right now – who knows if it will go up in the future.)
i didn’t get to the birth. i got to the second ultrasound where we found out it was two girls and a boy. how perfect is that, i ask you?! i got very mad when they started discussing c-sections with me. i was adamant in the dream that i wanted to try it the natural way. is that even possible? can one even contemplate birthing triplets naturally? or do drs of those patients immediately force them to bedrest and drug them up to make them less crazy? who knows. imagine that tho, because jerry would go even more insane if i was on bedrest and drugged up. who would care for our precious son?
i wonder if i should ask the dr for an ultrasound based on my dream? LOL. you know, just in case. ๐Ÿ˜‰
jeremiah will be one year old a week from today. isn’t that amazing?? i am just in shock over it. he has changed so much in the year since we’ve had him home with us. he is a real little person. a sweet, giving, fun, loving, smart, adorable little person. where has mama’s baby boy gone???
i’m in a big dump physically, mentally and emotionally right now. not just because of yesterday’s disappointing visit either. i am still feeling HORRIBLE. i’m trying to get ahold of my dr to see what’s going on. the last of my antibiotics was over on friday and my ear and throat still hurt like crazy and i’m still vomiting up a storm. my cough is the only thing that’s calmed down. but that’s not all. i am also freaking out over our money situation. not only do we not have money to buy anything for jeremiah’s birthday (or bday party) yet, we are struggling to pay the bills. and we were going to drive to michigan to see jerry’s mom this weekend. i don’t see how it will be financially possible to do it. the poor woman has yet to see her grandson, and he’ll be one in a week! i feel so horrible about canceling again, but i don’t know what else to do. we can’t neglect our bills and run off to michigan to have fun. mind you, it won’t be lots of fun. we’d be staying with her in her one bedroom apartment. and the drive always kills us. neither of us likes to drive, and 6 hours each way is long for non-driving types. but still. if i was feeling ok, i would be able to think clearly and work this out. but as i’m feeling right now, it’s just not possible so i’m trying not to lose my mind.
i am 10 weeks along btw. this means 2 more months before that telling ultrasound. i so long to see bean before then. i don’t want anything bad to happen to make the pregnancy a high-risk one. i just wish we could find out if our insurance would pay for two…
cravings i’ve been having have been varied and odd. yesterday i wanted toast with cinnamon and butter. thankfully i had it. in the middle of the night, while tossing and turning to try to sleep, i craved a salad. not a normal salad like i love, with cheese, tomatoes, croutons and ranch dressing. but one with broccoli, cucumbers and carrots. how odd!! also, i craved those twisty donuts with cinnamon on them. then, i craved a taco salad. and that would sound good right now if i didn’t feel like vomiting.
as you can tell i could use some prayer in the biggest way.

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  1. bobbie

    Sending you lots of prayers Jenn.. I hope you are feeling better
    Sending you lots of prayers Jenn.. I hope you are feeling better soon.. BIG HUGS!! I am sorry about your doctor not doing the ultrasound.. I know ours does one in the beginning and one half way.. If you want to know if your insurance will cover you having two.. just give them a call.. they are usually nice about answering such questions.. WOW.. Jeremiah will be one soon… The first year goes so fast..
    Triplets..lol.. wouldn’t that be cool.. I have a friend who has triplets.. she carried them until March and she was due in June.. all 3 girls did well… She had the naturally too!!! They will be 4 in 2 more months!
    Big hugs..
    If you ever need anyone to talk to Jenn I am always “out” here..lol.. in Cyber space.. and I have yahoo instant messanger.. and all that..

  2. Julie

    Ah… Multiple pregnancies… I would love to have one of those
    Ah… Multiple pregnancies… I would love to have one of those myself. I can’t remember which pregnancy it was in, but I had a multiple dream. I can’t remember if it was twins or triples… But it was cool…. Didn’t happen though! LOL!

    I did have two dreams with Josh that were right on the money. I drempt that he would be born on November 10, which he was. I also drempt that he was a boy, which he was. Very cool!

    I sure hope you get better soon. I can’t believe your antibiotics didn’t work. How very frustrating. I would call your doctor again, and maybe get some more!!!

    Love,
    Julie

  3. Manda

    My dreams were all over the place with Sarrah.
    My dreams were all over the place with Sarrah. Pregnancy dreams. Now, that brings back memories. lol. I am sorry things are so tight right now. January is always a hard month in this house. I’ll be praying for you.

  4. Kara

    lots of prayer going your way, mama ((( hugs ))) Talk about an e
    lots of prayer going your way, mama ((( hugs ))) Talk about an emotional roller coaster … I can well understand the financial end of things. We couldn’t even afford a cake at the time of Jillian’s last birthday … the only reason she had one is because my Mom bought one. And Christmas really was bumming me out … then it turned out her favorite gifts were the $1 Dixie cups! LOL

    Chin up! Hang in there … and remember, it’s okay to say “no” … you know your limits. (( hugs ))

  5. Jess

    Love ya! You know I am praying for you!
    Love ya! You know I am praying for you! ๐Ÿ™‚

  6. Amanda

    Jenn, I am praying for you for better health and a resolution to
    Jenn, I am praying for you for better health and a resolution to your financial woes. Hang in there!

  7. Rob

    You’ll be in our prayers, too! Nancy would love to find out she
    You’ll be in our prayers, too! Nancy would love to find out she was going to have triplets, although she’ll be quite happy with one.

    You know, a study (don’t ask me where) found out that if doctors asked their patients about dreams, the dreams would often clue the doctors into what was going on with their patients.

    I don’t know if that would extend to counting babies at your stage, but still, I wonder!

  8. BeckiK

    You might be in my neighborhood this weekend?

    You might be in my neighborhood this weekend?
    I’m sorry that you still feel like crap and that you have to weight to see the little bean!
    I hope things look up soon!

  9. Dani

    Triplets would be a blessing! I would love to have twins myself
    Triplets would be a blessing! I would love to have twins myself. ๐Ÿ™‚ Who knows what God will bless us with?! Praying all continues to go well with your pregnancy…sorry for the wait on seeing bean though. ๐Ÿ™

    Oh, btw, do you have a linkie blinkie I can link back to you with on my blog?

  10. Jen

    my gosh girl! triplets?? well, you never know! am looking forwar
    my gosh girl! triplets?? well, you never know! am looking forward to your first ultrasound ๐Ÿ™‚
    i can’t stand to throw up. i hope you feel better soon! just hang in there. you’re one tough mama! i can’t believe jer is going to be the big ONE soon ๐Ÿ™‚
    <3jen&adriana

  11. Misty

    You can have triplets naturally, however no doctor will let you
    You can have triplets naturally, however no doctor will let you do it!:) I have a few friends who had their twins at home though. Triplets might be pushing it;) I hope you feel better soon…

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