ok i need more at work prayer. i am feeling horrible every day at work. some days i make it in, some days i don’t. remember i had told my boss i would work as long as i could….
at first she was pretty understanding. moving me to another room and all. but now i’m wondering if she wants me to quit. so she doesn’t have to fire me or something. i don’t know what it is, it’s just a feeling i’m getting, and she’s being mean to me.
i already don’t want to be there because i feel like crap, but now this emotional stress is getting to me too. please pray for us. we really would like me to work as long as i can so we can have extra money saved up. if i got a new job it would have to be one that i worked in between noon and six and didn’t stand up all the time or lift heavy things. also i’d need to be able to leave at the drop of a hat to go throw up, because anything and everything can set it off, at any given moment.
i really wish i could get something at home, that i could work at my own leasure or something.
i know i am sooo whiny – women have done this for ages and continued working, throughout the entire pregnancy. i am not other women though. i have always been what you’d call a ‘sickie’ – someone who gets sick easily. i was prepared for this, but i really wasn’t prepared for how hard and fast it would hit me. don’t get me wrong – i’m still overjoyed that i’m pregnant. but being at work and feeling the tension that’s there is making me feel even worse than i already do. besides that i wonder if i’m even a good teacher anymore. it seems all i want to do is sit and hold the kids, and i daydream of when i’m holding MY baby.
i know i could do it for a while longer, but i don’t know how much longer i can do it while miserable. like i don’t know how much longer i’ll be able to hold out, you know?
please pray for me, for my strength, for my job, for my sickness, and also pray for my boss’s heart. she’s not the tenderest of people.
love and blessings,
jenn and baby