i wanted to tell everyone that i started my period again. i’m very disappointed and depressed. i had a major feeling it was coming because of the huge pimples that took over my face, but i was still hoping that was a pregnancy side effect. not so.
i am waiting to call the dr’s office because they’re on a lunch break. i’m supposed to be put on a higher dose of clomid this time, so i can guarantee my emotions will be out of control!
please pray for me. pray that i will conceive. i guess i need prayer on acceptance now as much as actually conceiving. perhaps the Lord doesn’t want me to have a child by birth at this time. if that’s the case, i need the strength to move on with my life. it seems i’m at a standstill with this. since all i ever wanted to be was a wife and mother, i don’t quite know what to do with myself. i feel a bit useless.
i know this is my hormones talking as much as my pain. my point is really just that i need lots of prayer.
love you all and i hope you won’t mind me if i don’t post for a bit.